Where the hell do I start?...
Those of you who know me well enough on here know that when I first joined, I was going trough some tough times with lack of intimacy with Lady-J and problems with exsessive masterbation, Watching porn constantly etc.
Now so far we've come o the understanding that me and my OH are at polar oposites when it comes to libido.
And since being on here, I have been able to get a grip on my problems as mentioned above.
Until the last few days that is.
I've started masterbating again, A LOT! Watching porn and pestering Jade a lot of the time.
I keep getting really really angry, Both with myself and with Jade, Though I know it's not her thats the problem. :(
If Im not angry, Im sad or feeling very lonely, And when I'm horny, Which is almost 24/7 at the moment, It's not a good feeling... I'm horny, But I feel miserable about it, Guilty and in a rage! I feel like it's controlling my every day life and I bloody hate it, As Im stressed eough as it is without this to cope with.
Now, Why the Bi-polar thing?...
I have been off work now for 13 years with so-called *depression*
Now over the last 4 years I've come to believe and understand my body and mind enough,.....
To know it's a totally different animal I'm/we're dealing with.
I'm currently waiting to have bi-polar tests etc to be done, And quite so, It may be something completely different I get diagnosed with...
Thing is, The one mental health disorder I relate to pretty much across the board is BPD.
Pretty much 99% of my symptons, Even going back to early childhood/teenage/adolescent years ( Now me and family have talked it through ) are consistent with Bi-polar disorder.
So, my main questions are these...
Does anyone at all here suffer with this ( Hypersexuality ) Or know much about it?
Is it known for someone to have prolonged episodes of hypersexuality? Not just in Manic phase but on a low aswell?
Is what I'm going through, Going to get worse?
How can We deal with this as a couple without me completely screwing things up with Jade?
Jeez, I really just want to drink a shed load of JD's and hide my head in the sand ight now
Please, Someone help while I await my referrel.