I've had a look through the threads and have decided that I need a lesbian experience before I can be sure what I am. My relationship seems dead end, we've had sex once in the past month and it was effing awful. I'm not attracted to him or his dick and I fantasise about women all the time. I think it's not going to last much longer.
I don't know whether to tell him about my feelings or not. He's changed recently, since I started depriving him of sex he's much more desperate to make me happy and he's a lot more understanding. I told him I watched girl on girl porn the other day which he thought was interesting but I blushed and didn't want to talk about it anymore. I wouldn't want to tell him that I'm bicurious, I don't feel comfortable enough to.
Anyway, IF we broke up how on earth would I go about finding someone to have an experience with? I would rather do it with someone I knew but I know that's not going to happen so it would have to be a stranger. I'd be really nervous about meeting someone of the net. Plus I know I'm going to be really fussy, I'd want someone pretty and slim who was semi inexperienced too so that I wouldn't feel like a complete prat if I did something wrong. I wouldn't want to do it with someone too experienced.
How on earth do you find someone like this?!
Oops sorry hun we posted at the same time hadn't seen your last post.
In all honesty I think you're making the right desicion. Its better to experiement now and find out what youo're like than to settle down with the wrong person only to find years later when you have kids etc...that you're not happy and don't know who you are.
In my opinion, he deserves to know, but you have a right to keep it to yourself too hun. He is going to want to know why though. It doesn't sound like IF a break up is on the cards any more it sounds like WHEN from what you're saying.
I wouldn't meet somebody off the net hun, you've really got to be careful. If you do decide to, make sure you take all safetly precautions (or come and meet me! ). I completely understand your feelings. I'm wanting to have a girl on girl experience and I know i'd be fussy too and terrified of making a complete tit of myself, not knowing what to do..etc. And it is very hard to meet someone once you take the internet away. You could try going to gay friendly pubs and clubs, see if you like the look of anyone there. Its hard to initiate flirting though with a girl! I've tried lol, I end up feeling sooo embarrassed.