Hi guys. A lot of my posts recently have been about how I feel rather depressed at the moment and the issues its caused in my relationship. I've finally figured out why- I've fallen out of love with my boyfriend.
I've been feeling like something is missing in our relationship for a little while now and I couldn't quite put my finger on it. I told him last week that I needed a little bit of space- we have still been seeing each other and going about our normal 'routine', but instead of just staying with him at his house while he has work to do, for example, I'll go back home or meet with my sister for lunch or something, which has given me a well needed little break.
I feel terrible having realised that I'm just not in love with him anymore. We've been together for 5 years, since I was 15. We've obviously changed a hell of a lot since we first started dating. I still love him so much, but I'm not in love anymore, which breaks my heart. I'm trying to make myself fall back in love with him as I don't want him to be hurt but I just don't know.
He's absolutely my best friend and I really do love him but I don't know how long I can keep trying to make myself love him more.
I want to explain to him how I feel but I know he will be crushed and I don't want to do that to him. I need to just tell him that I am willing to work at our relationship because I don't want to lose him but right now, I love him like I love a friend, and thats all.
I'm scared that he will think he's done something wrong or that I have met someone else but thats not the case. I don't know how to explain it to him so that he understands it is no ones fault and these things just happen sometimes.
Huh. What a mess :(