Hello, and welcome 
sorry to hear your loss 
Don’t worry about the toys, the good thing is they’re a lot better now than what they used to be! It will be your excuse to stock up again! I can remember my first love honey toy from about 15 years ago, I bought mine partly to get over a break up.
Yes, I can relate to that fear of other people finding my toys. I have a little experience to share on that. Part of the problem of owning these toys is where to keep them hidden from prying eyes! And when I had my first toy, a G rabbit toy, it was stashed in a bag hanging off my door as I didn’t know what else to do with it.
Anyway, my sister’s are very close to me and my eldest had gone looking through my room for a hairband and not told me. She came up to me later and said ‘I looked through your room for a hairband and couldn’t find one.’ And she looked me straight in the face with the biggest grin and said. ‘I looked in the bag hanging off your door!’ and i was noooo!!
But it was kind of funny at the same time. My sister isn’t the sort who would try to shame me for having a sex drive, but there are people in my family who would. If anybody has a problem with using toys, I would remind them that you are an adult, and they are an adult too and this is what adults do, and that should get the message across 
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