I crave, I NEED

There is nothing wrong with that, hun x

Thanks

Any time. I appreciate everything that everyone had mentioned on this thread :) x

It is really nice to come on here and find people with similar ideas.

It really is AYW I'm honestly so glad im not the only person here who wants what I do. X

I might be way off track here, but have you thought of hiring a recording studio somewhere local? A soundproof room that usually has very little furniture, you might even be able to record your antics to help you get off in the future.

my only other suggestion would be to try a dungeon afternoon, you never know your OH might get really carried away. (Don't forget your safe word just in case).