Same here, some of the things I read I wouldn’t want to get involved with in real life but there’s no shame in reading about it. Everyone ( well almost everyone ) has fantasies and indulging in erotic fiction means you can get to partly dip into those fantasies without causing any hurt to anyone.
Ever wondered there’s such a large selection of stories involving cheating, reluctance, non consent etc? It’s because there’s a hell of a lot of other people who like to read them too!
Don’t let guilty feelings spoil the pleasure you get from reading about things that make you feel good. For instance, I like stories about reluctance, cheating, multiple partners but it doesn’t mean I want to take this into real life. As long as it stays as a fantasy it’s harming no one 