Maybe some of you can help me out. I absolutely love anal. I have a girlfriend and been with her for five years. She has used a couple of small toys on me years ago but she doesn’t enjoy it, doesn’t turn her on or want to do it, even if I bring it up so that stopped altogether.
As we don’t live together full time I have been buying dildos, butt plugs, beads, balls and have been using them when I’m not staying at hers as my love for anal has grown so much throughout the years. Now I have a small suitcase full of them going up to 9 inch circumference dildos which she doesn’t know about.
I try and bring up using the small toys we have together on me and told her I had a dream about being pegged by her which really turned me on but she thought it was really weird and completely shot the idea down and didn’t want to know. I haven’t confessed how much I love it or the case full of huge sex toys as she would be really weirded out by it all and that I’ve been doing it all this time. I just don’t really know how to move on, i do love her, but do I stay with her and keep it a secret as I dont think I can bring myself to tell her I’ve been using these toys without her knowing all this time? Or is she not the right person for me I don’t know.
Also on another note if I haven’t had anal in a while, the thought of giving men BJs and taking it up the ass from a man turns me on, but kissing them or anything else like that doesn’t. Not sure why, could be bicurious? I’ve always had a fantasy with chicks with dicks, could just be that. Or I just like the thought of being someone’s submissive. I’ve always enjoyed being a sub more than a dom but that doesn’t happen when I’m with my OH as our sex life can be vanilla at times. Any help would be appreciated, sorry for the essay!!!