What a lovely post to read, quite inspirational for me, as going through a similar journey.
It’s quite strange, only yesterday I cracked open my Monster post to do similar in terms of providing an update, just been a little too busy, so will get it done when I have a chance.
Anyhow, this is your update, not mine
I think your posts will give a lot of people hope, because going through all this stuff is really scary, and very tough for me. But it shows you have took this face on, wrestled with your demons, and focused your energies on looking at yourself. A lot of people prefer to sit on their pity-pot and point fingers, they did this, how unfair life is.
Life is exactly what we make of it, and it has to start with finding ourselves (again, fecking scary!) and all that it entails.
Really glad you’re making great progress on your journey, and it sounds like you are taking it all in as you go without worrying about the destination.
The one key line I was going to use in my update is quite similar to one of yours:
I am not where I want to be, but exactly where I need to be right now. A long way to go on my journey, and no longer in a rush to get wherever it is I am going. My faith is returning, and my monster is not rampaging.
Keep doing what you’re doing, and following your instincts. For me that is how my higher power talks to me, my spiritual connection. It will lead you to the light, no matter how dark it seems. That sounded more religious than I expected, but hey.
And thank you @The_Little_Ladybird, your posts, comments and support have been a massive help for me, and truly appreciated!