Is anyone else into tarot? I like to read for myself and engage in a bit of discussion but the tarot forums I’ve been on have gone very quiet.
This last week I’ve been looking for information on autosexuality and did the reading below asking whether it was an orientation that might apply to me, at least at times, or something that would be worth trying to move myself more towards.
Position 1 - Where am I at the moment?
Card - 4 of Cups. Cups represent emotions.
General meaning - Overdoing something leading to boredom and stagnation.
Interpretation - The only thing this could apply to is porn. I used to get a lot from it but nowadays will sometimes spend a while searching, downloading and sorting images only to look at them once or twice, lose interest and delete them. I’ve currently only got one set of images where a guy is masturbating in front of a fully clothed woman who’s merely watching him and I’ve finally got to the point of wondering why she needs to be there at all.
Position 2 - What will change in the near future?
Card - II The High Priestess.
General meaning - Hidden knowledge and inner wisdom gained from self-examination.
Interpretation - The idea seems to be that of turning inwards, focusing on my own mind and possibly my own body, rather than images and fantasies of other people.
Position 3 - What is attracting me?
Card - 10 of Swords. Swords represent the mind.
General meaning - Defeat, death, a worst case scenario which however clears the way for a fresh start.
Interpretation - I definitely feel attracted to the idea of killing off patterns of thinking that don’t make me happy, intrusive thoughts.
Position 4 - Key to integration.
Card - 10 of Wands. Wands represent the will and energy.
General meaning - Overload and burnout.
Interpretation - As the “key”, positive advice would be to drop a burden, something that’s weighing me down and draining me. Given the other cards I’m certainly going to delete the remaining porn and hold back from looking at any more. Perhaps I should avoid creating a new burden by searching for a label, just try to refocus on my own body and sensations when my attention is caught by the sight or images of women.