I am glad i found this thread however i still have my many questions
i don't fancy girls in a way i don't want to be in a relationship with a girl, i definitely want to be with a man, however i really enjoy watching some lesbian porn it really turns me on.Also i sort of would like to have an experience with a girl but really because I'm a bit obsessed with boobs and i think I've always been as i remember having fantasies for years now in massaging/sucking/kissing them and i know i really really want to try it; i know I'm really not into fingering (sorry for details) as done on me or me on a girl, i have no,idea how i feel about going down : i don't know if i would be turned on if a girl would go down on me and I'm not sure i want to go down on a girl, however i am nearly 100% sure that scissoring would be the best thing i would ever experienced.
im also thinking that i am quite open minded about sex and wish I'll find a partner who will be quite adventurous and curious as I'd like to try a sex party and watching my partner with someone else, however i don't think i'll enjoy my partner pleasuring another woman but i'd love to watch my partner with another male, so if i am thinking like that i assume that it would only be fair than if my partner is watching me it would be with another female but also because i don't see the point having sex with another man only if my partner is watching and not participating, like for a three or more some i'd like trying at least a threesome because i think i'd like to have one person on my boobs and another going down (i don't think the gender of people is important) but in a threesome i wouldn't either, once again, enjoy watching my partner pleasuring or being sexually looked after by another female; being insecure this would just increase this feeling and i don't want that
do you think i am being selfish in wanting sharing partners "my way" or is it a justified feeling
is it wrong that i would enjoy my partner with another male because i don't want him with another female?i could accept, and i know how wrong it will sound but this is one of my fantasies and i also saw it on a thread feeling thank god im not alone, having a threesome with a sibling (i don't have any but i like having fantasies about it) and if my partner would have brothers and sisters i wouldn't have any objection that we all have sex as i know that him being with his sister shouldn't lead to a romance, affair…
because i am questioning myself and my life about anything at the moment i don't know if i wonder too much about everything -, also am i twisted having some of these ideas?
i just hope i will find myself and a matching partner
please share your thoughts
many thanks LH people