You shouldn’t be ‘self-aware’ of your body! The fact that you are making love with your partner is enough in and of itself.
Yeah, I watch ‘porn’ (although I prefer to call it ‘erotica’) with the full knowledge of my beautiful wife (and sometimes she gives me a helping hand!) but that’s all it is: images on a screen. I wouldn’t want to make love to anyone but my wife… And she knows that and is happy with it.
We are very blessed.
Its nice to hear a man’s view on this that really helps…I think its all in my head I just feel like im being compared to the media and adult films which really doesn’t help x
I really don’t think you should worry, like I said men like a curvy lady, no matter what porn and the media project. Edited by mod xx
Oi!
Bag o’bones here…let’s not stereotype…
People have different preferences and a healthy, confident sex life is always good, whatever anyone’s shape or size 
Your partner fell in love with you because of how you look. Life changes our bodies but most people still feel the same about our partners.
I think the blindfold is a great idea to help with your confidence. My partner loves me on top - it’s his favourite position (with doggy coming a close second). I have no idea why he loves me on top as my sense of rhythm is shot, my balance has me listing like a ship in a storm and I’m terrified that a burst of over-enthusiasm will have him at A&E with a broken penis! It also takes some engineering as I have to use my Liberator Wedge to prop me up as I have a dodgy right side and will fall over without a bit of support. Not sexy! But, there you go. The heart wants what the heart wants.
@Justthe2ofus2007 My weight has gone up and down over the years and I’ve always found orgasm easier and more intense when on top when I’ve been heavier. Weird. I also always get more intense orgasms with his weight on top of me even though doggy is my favourite.
Just stating my preference no stereotyping going on. There is beauty in everyone but we all have what we like xx
I think @MsR was referring to your choice of description. 
https://lovehoneyforum.com/t/new-clit-toy-ideas/258331/24
The Book of Brenna. Chapter 1, Verse 1
You look fine to me! 
Can’t comment on position but my wife is not a skinny lady; she’s very curvy and there is nothing sexier than when she rides me. I find when she arches her back and grinds it makes me cum quicker but don’t think you’re not sexy. I love being ridden.
Grind away girl
Hearing all your comments really are a great help…I think it must be all in my head to be honest I think your right confidence is definatly sexy maybe I should just grab the bull by the horns( so to speak lol) x
Grab that bull and ride it so to speak lol
So this is something I have struggled with, and have to adapt somewhat.
At nearly 18 stone myself, and hubby around 15 stone and averagely sized if not slightly under, there can be some challenges for both our fitness and getting the right depth/position.
What absolutely works for us is that he lifts his knees so that I can cross my feet under his legs/buttocks - not only does this help control the depth better it helps me/us keep the rhythm better as we are more closely entwined and move together.
to be honest once you get past the insecurity it’s definitely one of the better positions as you have so much control over what feels good, lean forward to slow down and be more intimate or lean backwards for more friction - and you can tease him by changing speeds and slowing down etc
Ultimately, he wouldn’t be interested in that position if he thought you had anything to worry about 
@Jazzam thank you for your reply iv always worried about my weight when on top but your right finding the right position is defo key xx
My wife struggles with any position that’s not missionary to be honest. Sex is just not natural to her in any way and she really tenses up and doesn’t relax. I’ve tried numerous things to relax her but nothing works so far.
I’m just adding my question to this thread as suggested by @SexInTheCity. I’ve started to enjoy cowgirl recently now that my body confidence is improving (I actually wore some non high waisted knickers the other day and still felt good!). I love the angle and I love the control that I get but I find, after a while, my legs and knees start to hurt. I have hypermobile joints (useful in some positions but not all!) so I can’t squat and my knees just don’t like being bent for very long. Any suggestions?
I also have dodgy knees - but hooking my heels under my OH’s legs keeps my knees happy. Cowgirl is our favourite and usually gets us to simultaneous orgasm
I’ll have to try that one. That hadn’t even crossed my mind but it might work! Thanks 
Have you tried using cushions, pillows etc to support your joints?
I have a couple of Liberator wedges which are helpful as I have arthritis, but before splashing out you might be able to use regular pillows for support - see if that makes a difference?
I’ve tried pillows but they don’t seem to do much for me. I could try a wedge but if pillows don’t help then a wedge probably wouldn’t either. Although it would be nice to try some other positions with! What I’d really like is a sex swing but I’d have to locate a suitable place to put it!