Really *big* step

Hello

I can’t really believe that I have never posted here before, I am not even a member. Half of my bedside cabinet comes from Lovehoney and I read this forum a lot.

I need some advice from the collective and I thought I would post with a polite request for some thoughts about how to navigate this weekend. It has also meant that I can now answer a few other threads which I will enjoy doing all day probably.

So, I am Emily, late twenties, married to Charlie, and we both live in Devon now and have a lovely life here. We have been together since freshers week at university and apart from one or two little indiscretions on holidays with the girls it has just been him and me all that time. Before him, I had a couple of non serious boyfriends in the 6th form but really didn’t experience an awful lot.

Whilst we have never really done anything too kinky, except for perhaps a bit of toplessness when his friends have stayed over, we have various friends who have tried things we have been curious about but not quite ever had the … not sure … courage, opportunity, Prosecco?

One thing I have been curious about is a really big cock and Charlie knows this and we sometimes have talked about it.

You can see where this is heading.

Last Summer we went to a garden party with friends and it ended up being a fairly drunken, skinny dipping, flirty fun evening once the sun went down. Nice big house with pool overlooking Salcombe, for those of you know who the area.

One guy there had this absolutely massive cock, I had never seen anything like it and could not stop looking at it. I found myself by accident talking to him and was just like a simpering school girl near him, I even complemented him on it. Inevitably the champagne, nudity, and flirting had an effect and he became erect as we talked, it was fine, it was dark enough and people were in and out of the pool all the time and there were various cocks in various states of erection so no one noticed.

I have not been able to stop thinking about it since, it was like an extra limb, and he was so confident about it and nonchalant when chatting despite this enormous weapon pointing at me and touching my tummy occasionally.

Charlie and I have talked a bit about it afterwards and for a few days but I kept thinking about it and eventually asked a friend who I knows him. It turns out that he is single and has something of a reputation with married women. I was put in touch with a married girl who was also at the party and we had a discrete chat. It transpires that the chap in question, Ciaran, has been known to be the ‘third party’ in threesomes and so on when couples have wanted to experiment a little.

So, over a few months one thing led to another and Charlie has agreed that I can tick of my massive cock curiosity with Ciaran and it is happening tomorrow. Charlie won’t be present, so it won’t be like a threesome, but it will happen in our house after lunch. Ciaran knows what is planned, obviously.

We are pretty much all set. Incredibly nervous though, especially me. Charlie is being incredibly … not sure … supportive, understanding, accommodating, lovely, probably of those things but he knows it is a big step not just for me but also for our marriage. We’ve been talking about it for months though and he is 100% about it.

So, please … thoughts, ideas, suggestions, reassurance, hints, whatever you can provide would be a great help. I know what I will be wearing for lunch, what we are cooking, and where will go afterwards, but if you can help at all in any way please do.

Wow, that was a hefty one for my first post, but it is a hefty topic.

Thank you all.

Kisses, Emily.

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@Emily19997

That really is a “Big Step” to take.

You say that:
“Charlie is being incredibly … not sure … supportive, understanding, accommodating, lovely …”

Have you stopped to consider how much Charlie genuinely feels about all of this - his inner-most feelings and emotions (those of rejection and his inadequacy) about what you are planning?

“One thing I have been curious about is a really big cock and Charlie knows this and we sometimes have talked about it … (and he) has agreed that I can tick of my massive cock curiosity.”

“ … he knows it is a big step not just for me but also for our marriage. We’ve been talking about it for months though and he is 100% about it.”

What about the consequences?
Is there a risk of your curiosity needing to be further satisfied?

I’m not sure that this is worth putting at risk your marriage to a wonderful husband in Charlie, and your idyllic life down in Salcombe … all just to satisfy your curiosity, especially with someone with “a reputation” locally.

Wouldn’t it be far safer. and less riskier, for you and Charlie to seek out large dildos to satisfy your “massive cock curiosity” before taking this step?

https://www.lovehoney.co.uk/sex-toys/dildos/large-dildos/?et_gk=af1fc68366814ff8bdb001ee08b63b3d%257C24.06.2025%252006%253A43%253A42

If you do go through with this, and you are both 100% on board with the plan), I sincerely wish you every success and hope all works out well for you and Charlie.

Good luck!

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I should probably explain.

The things we have talked about, in that context, are probably all under the ‘swinging’ heading, so we do both talk about fantasies of me and a big cock when we have sex. So, in that respect he is ‘into it’ too.

And we are not actually in Salcombe, the garden party was, we are far enough away that he won’t really interact or overlap with our real social circle.

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@Emily19997

Many thanks for your update and explanation.

Your update is very helpful in explaining that you’re mutually supportive in fulfilling your swinging fantasies following lots of discussion between you.

That puts a whole different complexion on the concerns I had for you both in my previous post - so I hope that you did not take any offense.

Hoping all goes well for you, and that your “big cock” experience is an enjoyable and a highly satisfying one.

:crossed_fingers:

I don’t have much advice to offer, but I do share @Himeros1 ’ concerns. Ethical Non-Monogamy is in some sense “normal” for me - my parents were ethically non-monogamous so it was modelled for me - but it was new for my husband. It nearly broke him watching me love on other men. I thought he was happy, but he was just trying to be happy for me. It nearly broke me too watching another woman fall for him, especially when she started mistreating him and I knew firsthand what a toxic relationship looked like, but I couldn’t save him from it until he was ready to leave it himself. Suffice to say, I realised then that I don’t want to share him anymore. We are monogamous now, and we are both more than happy with that decision.

I’m not saying that what you’re doing is wrong, but just because Charlie is supporting you, doesn’t mean he is happy inside. Please be very, very careful :slight_smile:

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Fully appreciate your apparent honesty Emily, just not sure exactly what you are asking.
If you have already been frequenting environments with potential opportunities and your husband is 100% signed up - then great, if he is not then delay and revisit.
Not sure where lunch and cooking fits in with wanting a big member experience, for me that sounds more like a date, however, I appreciate you may need to get to know the guy better before signing off.
If he’s ‘doing the rounds safely’ and you are happy to join his ‘list’, then I hope it works out for you all and he is a worthwhile big bucket list ticked.
Just a rhetorical thought - if Charlie requests a hall pass - how does that sit with you?
Good Luck!

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Hi and welcome to the forum, you both live in a wonderful part of the country. It sounds like everything is in place for the action tomorrow and I hope it lives up to your expectations. I think Charlie is lucky to have you but also you are very lucky to have him being so supportive. I hope we get an update as to how things went and I hope the 3rd party looks after your needs before the big cock performs. (if you get my drift) @Emily19997

How big do you want? Whats massive in your eyes… how big is hubby? Is it a lot in difference? Will hubby be ok knowing what youve been fucked with? Id find it hard to be honest

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It was unbelievably big, about 3x than normal, Charlie is bigger than average.

I’ve not held it but I don’t imagine I could get my fingers around it and it is at last 3 hand widths long when erect.

I know it’s not apples for apples as such, however my wife has only been with me, and I’m about average size. Our ‘dirty’ talk is to come up with friends or others we’d like to be with and I wouldn’t mind (in my head) her trying somebody else, so I bought a 3inch sleeve from here to try something different.

Used it yesterday and it worked, based on her noises and damp patch, and she also seemed more open to other ‘names’ of guys we know

As I say, not much the same as what you plan but I hope it works well for you

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I’d love my wife to be interested in this but every time I try to bring it up I get shut down no questions asked :cry:

Hi @Emily19997 , welcome to the forum.
Are you sure that you’ll be able to take the big cock? Also, what happens to your fantasies of you and a big cock once you’ve achieved the fantasy?

Whatever happens, I hope that you enjoy the experience.

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Everyone is different, so I appreciate your relationship.

Obviously you have had conversations.

My main thought is, is your partner really deep down okay?

What happens when you fulfill this? What if you prefer it? What if you want it more regularly?

If it were me, id look at involving my partner with play with big dildos etc, but I couldn’t bring myself, even with consent to sleep with anyone other than my partner.

Just really make sure your relationship is sound and can withstand any fallout that may have.

I hope it works out well for all involved and it’s a positive experience.

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Wow!! Im only 6 inches so that is absoulouty huge … youll be sore :rofl:

Just a hypothetical reverse situation here … and I have no idea about your physical appearance so this may not even be relevant but …

Let’s say, purely hypothetically, Charlie has a thing for huge breasts, much bigger than your own, and he has seen a woman who fits the bill topless at the same party. How would you feel about him wanting to fulfil a desire by having sex with this large-breasted woman? How on board with it would you be? Would you be outwardly supportive but also be fine with it deep down?

You might be … but it’s always worth considering a reverse situation when trying to work theae things out.

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As long as all parties are on the same page and in agreement then I’d say just ride the wave and enjoy it!

Just make sure your reassuring to Charlie and he is definitely ok with this and not just going with it to make you happy.

I get peoples concerns, I really do, but it sounds like you and Charlie have talked it through and you know him better than us to know that he’s fully on board and not just saying it and you going with it bc its what you want to hear.

It sounds like its all planned out and you’re ready and excited and yes its a big step and seemingly a big hill to climb :wink: Hopefully theres no pain, make sure you’re fully ready before penetration, have some lube on hand just incase.

The lunch at your house is odd for me, I think I’d have went with a hotel so its not in Charlies home but maybe thats a turn on for him.

Will Charlie want photos/videos of the ‘event’? How involved with it is he going to be? Have you got a plan for reclaiming afterwards?
Exciting times!

Wow I can’t ever imagine this happening in my relationship. We have fantasies of people joining in or watching us and us watching them but I don’t think there will ever be a day where it will be done seperate. We are a couple and everything will be enjoyed as a couple. I would really think on this because are you really sure once will be enough for you

Sorry for not replying until now.

All your comments are so thoughtful and thank you for worrying so much about Charlie. Whilst we have never really done anything naughty we have talked about things we might do and this was on the menu for a long time.

We are doing it here largely due to geography. Devon is quite sparsely populated and nice hotels are well dispersed, it would make it a big journey for everyone and finding the right place, for a Saturday day, would be tricky and probably not feel very relaxed and (semi) spontaneous.

We have a rambling higgledy-piggledy barn conversation, so I probably meant coming at lunch time and we will continue the social side of things over an easy, casual lunch. We have had a couple of evenings with a glass of wine as this idea has taken shape, so lunch would be a natural next step.

Our house has a sun room off the kitchen and away from the main living areas, so we will sneak in there and there are a mix of sofas and day beds where we will be able to spend time privately.

Finally, I did mention the bed side cabinet, Charlie has seen some of the biggest that Lovehoney has to offer disappear inside me, don’t worry about that!

Thank you all again.

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Hi @Emily19997 its now Saturday morning and I suspect you are getting nervous but also excited about your lunch time encounter, I hope everything goes well and the whole experience full fills your expectations. You should certainly give Charlie time this evening to reclaim you. It is one hell of a sacrifice he is allowing for you to full fill your desires. On a lighter note make sure you have some lube available if he really is as big as you believe. Good luck. xxx

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