So what’s your NO1 fantasy that you would always keep secret!!! Mine is a threesome with my wife and a super hot trans
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Hmm not sure I have any that I would keep secret 
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My OH talk about everything, I think. Shes desparate to find a bi playmate or FF couple and then introduce them into our weekend meet ups. We’ve tried mirrors etc, but she wants to watch me with another lady and join in. And ms to taje her doggy whilst she uses a strappon on someone else or goes down on them. I’m sure there are timing logistical issues with some of this. Me, well, I mention it, and we try and try it, so not alot gets left to the imagination
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But then it’s not really a secret anymore if I’d tell you? 
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Exactly what I thought 
Watching my wife have sex with one of her lady friends and then being asked to join in. 
Mine’s hardly a secret, more hubby isn’t into it. I kind of dug into it a little bit last night in an ASMR video though, so let’s talk about that.
Basically, I have a kind of doctor-patient/mad scientist fantasy: I find it liberating being referred to as a “patient” or “subject”. It does something, something deep, liberates some part of me that is otherwise hidden and repressed. It’s cathartic in a way that can’t be put into words, like I’m well and truly seen.
Anyway, last night I coulldn’t sleep, so I found this ASMR video from Ephemeral Rift. I knew he’d probably send me to sleep; a lot of his stuff usually does. And brain probing? Eh, I’ll admit, I needed the tingles. I haven’t tingled - really tingled - in a long time!
So let’s see what he can do.
Admittedly, the first few triggers didn’t really have me. I’m not going to reveal what my triggers are, that’s top-secret stuff (well I can’t be making myself too vulnerable, you never know who might read this 
) but then when Dr Corvus D Clemmons came up? It unlocked some part of me: some feral, growling beast that felt “seen”. That didn’t want to be “seen”, but now was.
I knew him, I just didn’t want to admit that I knew him. After all, that’s tapping into this little kink of mine.
And why doesn’t it want to be seen? I guess because of that: vulnerability. When we make ourselves vulnerable, we make ourselves open to judgement. When we feel judged, we feel attacked. So how best to avoid being judged (and hence, attacked)? SImple: don’t make yourself vulnerable. Hence and as such, this little fantasy of mine is something that I’ve only explored (at least and until now) through ASMR videos and with people that I don’t really know. Asides that (and certainly with partners who might judge me), I’ve kept it firmly under lock and key.
As an aside, by the way, I do believe that ASMR and BDSM (something else that I am into, and often enompasses medical play and roleplay by extension) often overlink, and I have a fascination with exploring that subject (ahem). I have a post written about that here, if you’re interested 