Writing this feels very uncomfortable, but here goes...
I have a large collection of vibrators, dildos and bullets. Mostly bought for by my OH. We use them together and me on my own (which he's totally cool with, it actually drives him mad at the thought) and adds fireworks to our amazing relationship! Soooooo.... why am I feeling so insecure and (shamefully) jealous at the thought of him using a male toy? Actually feel embarrassed and totally unjustified with such childish thoughts!
Keep trying to make sense of why I feel this way, but in all honesty I think I'm probably making excuses for myself... I initially brought up the conversation about getting "him" a play toy and made the suggestion of getting it, which he was surprisingly not into and showed no interest!
Ironically, he's been sent one and his reaction could not have been more different to when we had a convo about them! Now I'm not sure if that's what's making me feel meh, or the fact that it's modelled (supposed to be the real deal just cloned) on an actual real persons parts, makes me feel really icky! Not one of my toys have a "stars" name attached to them and to me is just a toy, an added extra, enhancer. His seems so much more personal 😣
Seems really aimed at who it's based on and quite seedy. I'm well aware that sex sells and men love a hot, beautiful chick, but I don't like that's it's my man. How bloody ridiculous do I sound I know... Am I way to jealous and a bit mental? Or can anyone else understand my... well whatever is?