I think to the surprise of no one on here, it’s my wife Miss Heather.
I first met Miss Heather in the fall of 1994 at work. I was married to my 1st wife then, we were married until I caught her cheating and our divorce was in the spring of 2006.
I was faithful. I never did anything with any other lady, even with Miss Heather back from 1994 through most of the year 2000 when we worked together. I never kissed her, we never did anything together outside of work.
She liked me, then loved me and she wanted us to be a couple back then when we worked together.
Not too long after meeting Heather is when I had an accident, an injury to my perineum while cutting up some of the zillions of trees that were knocked down by a bulldozer cleaning the road to our land, clearing the homesite etc.
I didn’t know this back then, but it caused a hole in an artery down there, a fistula and that led to unregulated blood flow going into my penis.
Again, back then, I had no idea about that injury inside of me. I was hurt and bruised and felt sore for a couple of weeks but then it healed. I wasn’t cut on the outside, there was no bleeding anywhere down there.
Now, I bring this up because it was affecting me but I honestly never tied any of what was happening to me back then to this issue.
I wasn’t trying to be mean by pinning on it Miss Heather either. I never said a word to her about it either. In my mind I thought it was due to Miss Heather though. And that wasn’t a good thought for me as I loved my current wife, my 1st wife.
What I did know was that I was experiencing many changes after I met and began working with Miss Heather.
In my mind, I mistakenly thought she was the cause of it. It wasn’t all physical either. I would have intrusive thoughts about her (which I didn’t want to have and I didn’t know why I was having them either, I just was though).
My body was changing due to the fistula. I’ll keep this brief. We all know how erections work. Blood goes into the penis to fill it up so it becomes erect.
Well, a man with a fistula in the artery leading to his penis and who has unregulated blood flow down there will easily fill up (become erect), even when he doesn’t want to at times.
Again, I had no idea why that was happening back then. I never tied it to the accident/injury where I was cutting trees and a large part a tree trunk I finished cutting dropped down and hit a branch and caused it to shoot up and hit me in my perineum.
My body was changing. I was becoming erect often and for long periods of time and I was 28 years old.
To me, it was happening out of the blue.
It was happening as Miss Heather was in my life. I was having intrusive thoughts about her.
I also began having wet dreams about her back then too.
It was a difficult period for me in many different ways back then, for many different reasons.
My 1st wife was less than pleased with me, with the changes to me, with my wet dreams that began out of nowhere.
Besides the physical issue or change, it was a lot to deal with mentally too, psychologically I mean.
There were already many strains between my 1st wife and me at that time but this added to them.
Hindsight is 20-20 as they say. Looking back it’s easy to see many changes that occurred with the way my 1st wife and the way she began treating me back in that time frame.
What I didn’t realize back then, but would come to find out in time was that many things were different for me with Miss Heather. They just were, they still are to this day. I and my body are much different with and around her, compared to other women.
Thankfully, early on after Miss Heather and I got married to each other, I simply quit caring about those things. They’d been a huge burden on me for a long time and it’s like I just set them down and quit carrying them.
I’m the way I am. I’m the way I am around Miss Heather and I simply no longer care that I’m the way I am around her.
Just as important, more-so actually, is the fact that Miss Heather doesn’t care either. It’s a non-issue for her. That was incredibly freeing to me.
I’d felt guilty for so long about the way I was around Miss Heather. I felt shame. Tears were shed, even at work sometimes. I was sad, confused, not understanding why changes were occurring to me and my then wife long had issues with me for many reasons and this just added to it for her so I was having to deal with her regarding all of this too and that wasn’t pleasant for me.
Not long after we married in late 2013, Miss Heather enabled me to set that burden down and it was incredibly freeing to me.
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