Firstly, I just wanted to say that I can see where everyone is coming from on this thread. I was in a previous emotionally abusive relationship, many, many years ago, which totally screwed up my head. (He was very controlling in all the wrong sorts of ways!) He was also my first love, and I was a total mess, and felt like I was not worthy of anything good and felt as though I did not deserve happiness. Then I met the wonderful Mr Scorpius, and he helped me get through this with his patience and love, and now I am so happy and realise that I do deserve good things!
We are in a loving Dom/sub relationship; it takes a huge amount of trust from both partners when you are tied up or in a vulnerable position, but in NO WAY is there any abuse involved. A true D/s relationship is about giving the other person what they want and desire. For one it will be the Dominance, the control, the power – for the other it’s the submission, the freedom and ability to completely let go of yourself and put yourself in the hands of that one person that you most trust. This can be sexual or not. D/s could include a subtle power exchange such as one partner being blindfolded, and not being able to tell what is going to happen next – or being tied up (physically with cuffs or rope etc, or mentally – being instructed ‘not to move’) while some erotic experience is played out. Its not necessarily about pain at all.
For my Husband and I, the D/s part of our relationship just feels ‘natural’ – just part of ‘us’. It goes beyond the bedroom for me – my Husband will look after me in other ways, like making sure that I take care of myself e.g. Eating properly (a virtually resolved but lingering issue from a previous relationship). I couldn’t wish to be more loved or cared for.
My Husband doesn’t spank or flog me as an act of violence, or aggression – he does so because I want him too, it turns me on and the sensations I get feel amazing. I understand that D/s is not for everyone, but for me it is a wonderful experience.
You really need to communicate with your partner, and discuss exactly what you both like and dislike like before you start any type of BDSM play. It may be useful going through a simple check list of things that you are both happy with and you can include talking/not-talking, different types of bondage and scenarios etc. Then when you have this information and know your hard limits you can decide how the scene will go. This won't all happen overnight. It takes a long time and a lot of honest communication to work out exactly what you both want and need.
The most important thing is that your partner feels safe, and make sure you have safe words in place (or a signal if she is gagged) so that you know when to stop and check she is ok. Safe words don’t mean that you don’t trust your partner. They are there to protect you both on a physical and emotional level.
I don't have to use safewords normally, as Mr Scorpius can read me very well, but we do have the traffic light system in place, if I feel I need to. GREEN to let my Mr Scorpius know that I am comfortable to continue - especially during a new activity or something that is more daring.
AMBER means ‘slow down’ or ‘I’m close to my limit’ and RED means ‘all play stops immediately’. If I am wearing a gag, then I either bang my hand on the bed or click my fingers to alert him. You can also hold a squeaky toy or a bell too.
The most important thing is that you feel safe. Honest communication between the Dom and sub will help you both to understand your fantasies, boundaries, fears & desires. Know each other’s limits and always respect them.
I get a buzz (during and afterwards) of pushing myself and experiencing things that I would not necessarily choose myself, but secretly fantasise about.
Whatever you do, it should always be Safe, Sane & Consensual :) x