This master/slave BDSM thing that I’ve had going on with my roommate, his girlfriend and his friends for the past several months has been gradually wearing me down. I’m the dominatrix, they wanted to be my sex slaves, it was fun but lately I want something else. I’ll admit, the lure of having consenting people willing to do anything I ask, had it’s rewards. They enjoyed playing fully submissive roles, so I guess we all got what we wanted.
At the end of the day, I know that they are basically using me for my body. I mean they wouldn’t want to be my slave if they didn’t find me physically appealing. I’m a bossy person, I almost feel in the back of my mind that they somehow exploited that as a way to get me to fulfill their submissive kinks while still getting what they want from me even though I told them when and what they could do to me. Maybe I liked the convenience of sexual deviency without having to maintain a normal relationship. I’m not assigning blame, just getting bored with it.
I told them that I no longer wanted to keep doing this. They didn’t fuss, they just agreed. I explained that I wanted a more normal sex life. No more whips, teasing, straps and chains. I just want to do normal things. lol. But not with them. I want a normal partner with normal kinks, if that makes any sense.
So today has been my first day of freedom in a while. No one kneeled in front of me asking for my permission. No more texts that refer to me as their mistress. No more complaints that I did or didn’t say or do something they were hoping for. No more having to wear a strapon and screw anyone in the ass only for me to be the one cleaning up everything. No more having to order anyone to go down on me or having to put on their restraints for the millionth time or fumble with the keys to locks. I just want some normal, spontaneous fun without having to put stuff on or always play the dom.
What toys they didn’t want, I trashed. Cleaned my room, have more space now. One would almost think that I wasn’t kinky just to look at it now. It was almost surreal when my roommie’s GF came in, dressed normal and we had a normal conversation that didn’t have her acting so submissive. She’s actually normal underneath. lol Then she asked if I still wanted to do anything else with them instead like have a threesome or whatever. I declined for now. I think maybe they both relied on me too much to fulfill their fetishes. I just want a normal man, so we’ll see how that goes. Good men are hard to find.
