@MsSubExperimenter glad your ok! Just know you can vent or whatever to me anytime! I am here most of the time as you can probably tell! Take care my friend! 
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You too @WillC - am usually here before, during and after work!
I canât believe how much I missed the forum when it was gone!
Thatâs horrible @WillC. My grandfather collapsed and died on my 19th birthday, after that my birthday meant nothing to me. My Mum collapsed and died a couple of weeks after my 40th birthday, the saddest day of my life, I had no help or support, my brotherâs boss gave him all the time he needed & I was grudgingly given a week by my boss at the time, it nearly finished me off inside, but I somehow managed to pull through. All my adult life Iâve felt on my own. I think itâs a combination of my utterly miserable school time and lonely adult life, it might sound strange but the anger inside has kept me going.
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@Knight1119 how awful, i know how you must have felt. Same goes for you, if ever you need help or support donât hesitate to ask.
You come across as being a lovely caring kind bloke @Knight1119 whoâs making the most of the cards youâve been dealt with.
Always wishing people well and offering reassuring heartfelt advice.
You have friends here @Knight1119 youâre not on your ownâŚ
Virtual hugs
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Thanks ever so much @CurvyJilly, you are so kind 
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Thanks @WillC, very kind mate, I find comforting and spoiling my girlfriend helps me.
Youâre not alone @Knight1119 I canât imagine how awful that must have been 
youâre definitely a good egg, always making lovely supportive comments and making sure weâre all okay, just know that weâre here for you too xx
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@Knight1119 youâre welcome! As the ladies have said, youâre a nice chap and we will give you any support you need.
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Very kind @MsSubExperimenter, thanks xx
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Cheers @WillC.
Youâre welcome! 
Thereâs already lots of advice on here and it sounds like youâre trying your hardest to work things out for yourself. I just wanted to say well done for speaking out - mental health in men is often considered a taboo subject and speaking out and communicating is such a huge step, and something that needs to be discussed more.
Have you tried writing down your feelings and any triggers? I find that this can often help identify the things that make us sad and the things that bring us happiness.
The charities/organisations that @VivaciousViking has listed will be super helpful too. I am also hoping that your GP has already given you numbers for âcrisisâ lines for you to contact if you feel things do get too much? If they havenât then I would be happy to put a couple on here. Even if you donât feel its something you need right now, they are good to have to hand in case things get worse or you just need to talk to someone on the phone.
Even getting out of bed is such an achievement when youâre feeling like this so remember how well youâre doing. Sending love 
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oh I could rant all day today - life has some really dark cards and this year Iâve been dealt some really crap cards and whenever I pickup another card itâs even darker Urgh
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@FortySomethingWife well feel free to vent here. If we can help, we will.
Rant away @FortySomethingWife it will make you feel betterâŚ
Think weâve all had more balls to juggle this yearâŚ
Hugs
Given I need to keep info about myself safe here I canât really rant but letâs just say Im juggling so many plates I feel like somethings going to crack soon.
Bring on lock down 2 - that might help
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Well Iâve got ten pairs but itâs not really the time for it today lol
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Iâm exactly in the same boat and I canât say too much about mine either @FortySomethingWife but be reassured everyone on here is lovelyâŚ
Virtual hugs hun
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Sometimes i am scared to get too happy because some clusterfuck usually comes along to cut you back down. This year sums up that feeling perfectly! 
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