So this I guess is another update post but also I guess a thank you too.
As most of you know I went through a very tough time the past 18 months or so. Well whilst going through therapy I found out a few things. One of those being (without me explaining to my counsellor) that some major warning lights for people with depression include taking big risks they wouldn't normally take especially when it comes to sleeping with a random guy (which as most of you know is how I lost my virginity... although I do have to wonder how much he counts it was kinda like that seen on the inbetweeners when Will pogos on charlottes stomach for 3 seconds... only difference is the guy I slept with came) I'm not ashamed that I slept with that guy (Mr L) gutted I found my soul mate like 2-3 weeks later though but he's understanding and didn't mind, especially when we agreed we may not be each others firsts but hopefully we will be the others last.
Anyway I'm off topic...
The good in life is shining through more and more and I'm so grateful that I made it through that horrible nasty dark patch in my life to see the other side.
Good things:
My photo is still second in the competition (the first might've been banned because the photo is no longer up and has been a blank space for a good month now) so I will be hopefully making it to the semi finals of the competition soon enough.
Tomorrow I am going to a local deli to hand over 2 of my framed printed photos as the woman is really interested in my work and wants them on her wall. I'm getting paid £20 a photo and she hopes I'll print her more.
I have gone for an interview and work trial (4 and a half hours) and now they're asking me to go back again Thursday for a 5 hour paid shift to see how I get on with the special needs child and how he/she is with me as they need to make sure that person is the best person for the child as they need to do a lot of 1:1 work with him/her. So I might fingers crossed be getting a new job (they said they hve full time and holiday and sickness cover but from the sounds of it if I do well it'll be holiday and sickness cover with set hours on a Thursday. This means I can get out of the hell hole I'm in now that's caused all of my anxiety and a lot of my depression.
Nan is going through radiotherapy (she didn't want to but we convinced her) brothers much much better after his back op, no one expected him to do so well he was walking in like 3 days, didn't need the wheelchair we bought him, or the bath chair (we have since given these away for free to those who truly needed it)
Boyfriend and I are still in a honeymoon phase (no one can believe it apparently it should've worn off by now but not for us) he's the one who got me doing photography in the first place and he's also suggested I try my hand at my other dream and attempt to make children's clothing.
Our puppy was definitely previously abused but she's doing so much better now the difference is incredible and we are contacting the RSPCA about her previous home.
My boyfriend and I are practically living together as it is but soon when we have our own sturdy jobs with decent money coming in we'll be getting a place of our own. At the moment my erratic wage isn't helping, I can't live on such a wage where I have no clue how much I'm getting and most months wouldn't even be able to afford the rent.
So yeah sorry this is so long but now for the other part.
I just want to say thank you to everyone on here for reading my posts and sticking with me and helping me through it all. There are a few others (you know who you are) who have really helped me off of here too and been a great help off of here and off of twitter too.
thank you everyone so much
Love a happier, brighter, almost-old-me-again-but-still-got-some-work-to-do Kirsty x