Hello all, I am looking for some advice on how to…change myself a bit in the bedroom. I’ll explain and try not to make this a novel, haha.
My wife and I are in our mid thirties, married for 11 years and have a kid. We have been together so long that it sounds crazy that I am still looking for sex advice, but I guess things have just changed a bit. Some background… our sex life could be called lacking or less than average. In normal circumstances it’s maybe once every few months. A lot of it is due to having a kid, both of us being extremely busy full time, and not having super easy access to an overnight sitter. We’ve never really been the “quickie” kind of people, so like ducking away for a few minutes isn’t really something we’ve ever done. Anyway, the sex between us has always been good, in my opinion. Really no complaints, other than it’s I guess just been a bit too…normal? Nothing really crazy ever. Well starting a couple years back my wife started kind of throwing hints that she was actually into me being the dominant and controlling one in bed. In our daily lives I would consider myself fairly timid and kind of a bit of a worrier…nervous to upset people, that kind of thing. The wife is outgoing, personable, and a bit controlling at times. She also has ADHD pretty bad. We do mesh well together normally. But lately with sex she has started to exhibit behavior that she’s kind of bored maybe, and doesn’t like things “slow and romantic” as much. A couple years ago we hung out with some friends, had some drinks, all that…and when we got home she was feeling pretty good, haha. So when things started getting heated she started saying things like “I want you to control me”…honestly whispering that to me even when we were still out. I guess it caught me off guard, and maybe I was thinking it was just because she was drunk. But it’s kind of continued on with her, little things she says here and there. We had a night away a couple months back and when we got back things started the way they normally have before…we were in bed next to each other and just kind of talked for a while. Even after all these years I still tend to get nervous and worried about pushing too hard or initiating and it being awkward. So then after a while I just kind of started just “sweetly” kissing her while she was laying down, and after a couple minutes she was kind of pulling away from me. She started talking and asking about why I was doing that, and how I was “kissing her like a goldfish” hahaha. We just started laughing about it…I was a bit embarrassed I supposed, so then I started getting more aggressive and she instantly responded to that.
I have talked to her a bit about this and the way she explained it to me is that in her daily life she is constantly making decisions and in charge of things and getting questions all day long, that she is exhausted and sick of it. So then when it comes to sex, she doesn’t want questions, she doesn’t want indecision, she wants to, like she said, be controlled. She doesn’t want to think or talk. She said talking ruins it for her in her mind and gets her thoughts racing about many other things. She never wants me to ask her “what do you want”. She wants to be told and she seems to really respond to me being more aggressive or dominating. So that leads to me asking for advice…even after all of these years this is something that’s new to me and not who I have been in the bedroom for a very long time. I don’t really fully understand how to be this way, and I worry about that line of being dominating versus being a complete disrespectful asshole. I don’t know how fully into BDSM she is really wanting to go…or anything like that. I guess I just wanted to hear from others. Does this sound like anyone else? What does it sound like she is really craving? We’re having another night out in a couple weeks and I really want to give her exactly what she’s wanting without having to ask. So help a timid husband be less timid, haha!