Hi MsR (and Mr Chimp - thanks for mentioning me).
That Kegel ball is a great choice but you may have a bit of difficulty inserting it so slather it with lube and try ‘pushing out’ a bit as you’re inserting. Sounds a bit bad but it relaxes the muscles a bit.
The glass dildo is also a great choice. Try warming it first, though. You need to be physically relaxed as much as possible.
Check your lube. I had a problem with Yes as it tends to go out of date really quickly and irritates me if getting close to end date. If I’m feeling at all sore I switch back to Liquid Silk as I find it helps soothe somehow. I’d read that coconut oil has anti-microbial properties so that might help, too.
I’m latex sensitive, too, so Skyn Extra Lube condoms are my choice. I’m also - wait for it - semen sensitive! So they get used unless we have ‘pull out’ sex. Have you considered ‘pull out’ sex and finishing by hand/bj sometimes?
Have you considered asking the doctor for oestrogen pessaries to see if a short course will get you, well, back on course?
And last but not least, a low-level background kind of thrush can cause soreness. This would happen to me a lot with my ex-husband. I was really allergic to his semen (and him in the end!). The GP never believed I was allergic to semen, didn’t think it was possible (I’ve since been tested and it does) but he did swab me and although symptomless I had a yeast infection. Shocked the hell out of me as all my previous thrush infections had been very obvious.
It’s going to be trial and error with this, unfortunately. I think it might have been triggered by the ‘use it or lose it’ thing so a ball will help until you can get back to normal and the glass dildo might actually be soothing. Try it warm first then cool it. Using your bullet to have an orgasm to relax you before using insertables might help quite a bit, too.
I feel your pain literally. It’s horrible wanting sex and the closeness it gives you but finding it painful. No matter how understanding a partner is it still makes you feel guilty and frustrated. But don’t give up! We’re all here supporting you.
Can I just add my apologies for the late reply? And the being a bit of a fart to Mr Chimp regarding linking and board stuff. I’ve not been myself this last week, physically or mentally. Hopefully back firing on all cylinders again in the next few days, though I still doubt my abilities getting to grips with the bits and pieces of the new boards!