Okay, so I'm kind of going out on a limb with posting this, as I've never actually started a topic here before. I've posted in a couple, but mostly just stalk the forums! So yeah, go easy on me and forgive the nervous rambling? XD
Basically, I want to ask if there are many people here who are or have been involved in BDSM relationships? Those who are or have been, how did you find yourself in that relationship? Is it primarily a case of finding someone, and then discovering that they're into that too, or is there anyone who entered a relationship based on that common interest?
I guess I'm asking this partly out of simple curiosity, and partly because I broke up with my boyfriend two months ago, and have been mulling this sort of thing over lately. I've been interested in dominance and submission for a good few years now, and told my OH while we were together. He claimed to be interested too, but I think it was more to please me, than anything.
At any rate, we tried a few things, but it never seemed to work out well. He just wasn't the dominant sort, I think. Far too tentative, which I know sounds callus, but it really did boil down to that for the most part. We were each other's firsts, and by the end of the relationship, I dreaded sex. I've never orgasmed with another person, be it during sex, oral, or anything. It was fine at first, and I was of the mind that I didn't need to come, but then he made it his personal mission to make me do so, which left us both frustrated when it failed.
Basically, I ended up dreading any sort of sex with him, and the relationship crumbled from there. I'm worried about this happening again with another partner. I know that I'm interested in quite a few aspects of BDSM, and interested in trying most things, but the idea of just showing up at some sort of fetish club scares in living daylights out of me, and doesn't exactly seem like a safe thing for a nineteen year old girl to do alone, to boot!
I guess I don't really know what the point of this rambling post is, to be honest. I think I'm trying to ask if anyone has been in a similar situation to this before, and what they did?