I can't imagine to be honest. It's been hard enough trying to maintain relationships with men who are happy with a couple of times a week, especially as a lot of people are still of the mindset that a woman that needs or wants a lot of sex is 'loose' and can't be monogamous.
On the other hand, purely sexual relationships (such as they exist) never work either because the amount of required 'intimate time' ultimately leads to attachment on one side or the other, either that or the other... party I suppose, doesn't have that much free time in the first place, hence their need for a relationship based on sexual gratification in the first place. Lose lose really...
And don't let keeping a few vids lessen the pride you can take. It is a massive thing that you've done. God knows in the past I've kept numbers of previous sexual partners for 'emergency situations'. Similar sort of thing really, with regards to having something to fall back on. It is scary!
Thanks for the add by the way!
I think I may be on the verge of a not so nice phase. :/
Feeling very angry right now, Frustrated, But it doesn't feel like the usual shit.
I feel like Im changing, Not caring & Just becoming less open minded to things in and out of the bedroom.
Luckely seeing my shrink in the next few weeks so will bring this all up with her.
But have any of you felt like this, Like I said, Not the usual ups and downs but
like a significant and long term change is imminent?
Yup, Having a bad day/week/month lol!
Bless you hun! I'm really not myself at the moment, I've been snapping and upsetting people.
It doesn't feel like a good change though, More of a large black cloud on its way. I dont get it, Ive been having hypnotherapy which was helping, Yet I feel like this.
I'm going OFF sex ( ??? ) & masterbating more again.
Im feeling more emotional than usual, I upset a random stranger over on fetlife...
My shrink has referred me to some emotional skills course, But I hate groups!!!
Councelling WON'T work, I find them nosey, condisending and they over analyze everything!!!
Grrr! I'm probably pissing everyone off at the moment so think I will shtoom!
Bless you hun! I'm really not myself at the moment, I've been snapping and upsetting people.
It doesn't feel like a good change though, More of a large black cloud on its way. I dont get it, Ive been having hypnotherapy which was helping, Yet I feel like this.
I'm going OFF sex ( ??? ) & masterbating more again.
Im feeling more emotional than usual, I upset a random stranger over on fetlife...
My shrink has referred me to some emotional skills course, But I hate groups!!!
Councelling WON'T work, I find them nosey, condisending and they over analyze everything!!!
Grrr! I'm probably pissing everyone off at the moment so think I will shtoom!
Hi Sed
I would just like to thank you for bringing this one up as i have a friend with BPD but have never linked this with her hypersexuallity, to be honest i thought she was just a bit of a nympho when she had a bit to drink.I will see if i can get her to sign up to LH so she can read what you have to say.
Thanks
Well I've been a well and truely miserable git today, For which I apologize! I suppose I'm just going through the whole feeling unwanted and guilty for having sexual desires & fetishes thing AGAIN! Thats only a small part of it mind, Lifes being a bitch at the moment & I don't know where to turn. I'll be ok, Its just some of this I have to get through myself, Without any help :(
Chin up Sed.
Js not really into big hugs at the mo but shes not well so yeh.
Anyway, Avrielle you do help sweetie! Im in a far better place today,
Between you, NK, Scarlot/loveshuni/Mistress-Scarlot, Boobaloo, J & my boss, You've all helped me feel better :)
I think I was getting all upset and narky about BDSM, Not because of BDSM itself, But because of how I feel at the moment...
I'm hardly in control of anything irl at the moment, So even thinking about becoming submissive in the bedroom really isn't something I like the idea of lol! At the moment. J isnt really up for it anyway bless her...
I'll be ok - And as for this 'thing' I need to deal with myself, It's not going to go away any time soon & there's fuck all I can do about it EVER! So I just need to learn how to deal with it, And one day get over it if I can. Its nothing bad & its not related to my health. Just stupid feelings ruling my heart!
Anyway, Onwards and upwards eh?!
I'll probably get some new pics up at some point but as for the old ones - They're all gone apart from one for good, I deleted the whole lot from my hdd and Reformatted it.
Impulsive behavour is a bitch sometimes lol, I hated them anyway so nothing lost!
Paul ;) xxx
Sed hunni *massive hugs* Don't really know much about BPD but have suffered on and off with depression for 17 years. I really hope you get where you need to be soon. Wish I had more to say or some words of wisdom but I don't, just wanted to send some hugs yur way. xx
Hi OP, I've little to add to what others with knowledge on the matter have said.
I'm bipolar II disordered (the "diet" version as my "full fat" sister terms it), which means I mercifully do without the fullest highs and occasional forays into psychosis that BP1 can bring, instead oscillating between a depressed state and extremely irritable/angry state.
My libido waxes and wanes in sync with my general disposition, when I'm down there's no point trying to do anything and even masturbation drops off the radar (that's when I know it;s time for a trip to the Pdoc again) and when I'm hypomanic it goes off the charts to the extent of maintaining erections for hours on end and the accordant multiple orgasms with zero need for any refractory break. It's the hardest part of the condition for partners to get to grips with in my experience (sorry, no hideous pun intended, having read that back). That and it has led me astray and damaged relationships that way before.
Medication can either attenuate or exacerbate your libido, as others have said Citalopram killed it stone dead and ended up turning out to also induce lower lows and tip me from merely self-destructive/harming behaviour into suicidal. Carbemazepine was more efficient at stablising general mood and came closest to normalising my libido.
I've always been a reasonably heavy "user of porn" (since I was in single figures) and first had sex at a very young age and it has always been my vice, greater in appeal than any drink or drugs have ever tempted (and mighty tempting and fun/awful they have been at times) and that remains a core part of my personality to this day - and I hope it remains so.
Godo luck with your treatments, I found talking therapy far more beneficial than medication in the end and am lucky to have a few very close and trusted friends and loved ones who take care of me when I can't be trusted to. You're on the path to a more balanced existence, but it's not an easy one.
That's as much as I wish to say on a forum where I'm still new, but will doubtless open up if and when the time and occasion is right. As others have offered, by all means drop me a PM/e-mail through my profile if you have any questions or could use an ear at a difficult time. Same goes for anyone else similarly affected here, all the best people in my life are a little nuts at times.
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I want to answer with advice... but I can't. I'm sorry I can't, you talk of advice, but it's not the same... none of these repercussions are the same... all I know I can do from group experience is to bite my lip hard, it's better that way, rather than getting others emotionally evolved.
I'm here for you, but please don't rip my soul apart among an audience,
sorry, I've ben finding this very hard, but resently you have adressed it/.
Hi Sed, I'm not bipolar but am being treated for depression. I was recovering but car prang earlier in the year has made things worse. Am on prozac and it seems to be working but my sex drive is all over the place.
Cant really give much advice but from someone who has been in a very dark place the only thing I would suggest is trying to bring the appointment forward. I know how quickly I spiralled downwards and would hate for you to do that if it can be avoided
thinking of you
xGGx
Thankyou GG.
I'm bouncin back again at the moment. I have a knack of fighting off the depression if it gets too bad.
But am still seeing my Pdoc as need to get to the bottom of this.
Dont know what happened to Nymphs post from last night?