Since I got advice from you lovely lot and found my voice on here and told my OH what I needed in the bedroom our sex life became so much more satisfying and interesting. I bought some fantastic toys which we both love and have tried things I never thought I would.
However, recently he has started having some issues with ED. He has always been quite quick to come during penetration, but always said it was because I excited him so much. But over the last few weeks he has started to go soft before we even get started.
Because I wanted to take the pressure off him, I told him it was ok and didn't matter, that I was happy with our sex life and not to worry about it. He is quite light hearted about it..making jokes but then he says he's useless and even thinking that he may go soft can cause it to happen immediately.
A few weeks ago after and episode he said he was thinking of seeing the GP about it. I felt really bad for him and said that it was his decision and that it didn't worry me but if he felt so strongly about it then he should, hoping that he would but not wanting to make him feel bad.
Last week he gave me oral and then after i came (this is the only way I do) he tried to penetrate me....after a little fumbling around and thrusting at me 3 or 4 times he came before it even went in!
I felt very frustrated and a bit cheated. I know this is selfish, but this is how I feel. Now I feel bad that I didn't encourage him to see the GP when he mentioned it as it clearly bothers him a lot. I was just trying to be supportive, but made a mess of it
I am finding now though that I can't get physically excited about sex any more. I know that after foreplay it's just going to end there. Yes, I know that some people never get past that stage, but having just discovered fun sex, I feel I want more of it not less! It's like the more I want, the less I get. I know he was a bit shocked by my apparently sudden transformation but he said he loved the new me, and to be honest I always felt this way ...I could simply never talk about it
I still want to make love all the time but when we do it's a bit of a let down.
I see toys on here like cock rings that stimulate the clitoris and they look great, but then I think what's the point, when i wouldn't even get started before it was over.... I feel bad saying this; but I have even considered using a male escort, just to be able to feel what it's like to have penetrative sex for more than 30 seconds. This is never going to happen because I know it's wrong on so many levels, but I do think about it.
How do I put this mess right?