On/off affair with dildos

Hi all,

So I have an on/off affair with dildos . . I get the 'horn', order dildos but then cancel orders as I feel embarassed. However I have ordered 2 x yesterday; http://www.lovehoney.co.uk/product.cfm?p=22237, and http://www.lovehoney.co.uk/product.cfm?p=16727 (yes purple is my favourite colour). Quite excited to receive them on Tuesday and get playing but I am worried that I'll get embarassed and then throw them both away (daft, I know). I always have a feeling of guilt thereafter once I have masturbated . I don't know why when it's a natural thing to do.

Did anyone else feel embarassed when they first ordered dildos? Or is it just me?

LongLegs2014