my OH suggested I make a post about this, as its something I have trouble with, and its daft and silly and embarrassing, but if anyone is going to understand, then you guys will.
*starts at the top* I really struggle to orgasm on my own sometimes, because I feel dirty and guilty like I'm doing something dreadful when I get close, and it puts me off getting myself off. When my OH 'helps' I can get over the edge, but am often left feeling 'hollow' and filthy.
I know this isnt rational, and I vaguely know where it's come from. Growing up (meaning teens), EVERYONE knows that boys masturbate and thats fine, but girls that do it are filthy whores/ sluts / desperate / dirty etc etc. On the one or two occasions I was caught masturbating in my mid teens, I got yelled at, So I didnt do it anymore.
At some point during this time I gathered the impression that sex toys are the sole pleasure of sex workers / porn stars and desperate people.
Now I KNOW this isnt true, and I enjoy many of my collection. But I still struggle to get myself 'over' the edge, something that has nearly brought me to tears on occasion.
So yeah, What I basically wanted to know is does anyone else, has anyone else, had this sort of problem and how did you (scuse the pun) overcome it?
or is it only me?