It's a communication problem, not a fetish problem.
Thanks for the responses. They definetly made me think.
To be clear, im not considering having an affair. Its just that a lifetime feels like a long time to keep this suppressed.
Watching porn and going to strip clubs to enjoy this is already a bit of a secret and i fear you have to go further and introduce more deceit to keep getting the buzz, and where does that end.
You are right that its a communication issue. I joke about it and flat out ask fairly regularly, but she doesnt know just how important this is and how much i want this. I guess i need to take a leap and just explain it at the risk of looking stupid.
Im slightly embarassed that such a small thing can end up being so important in what is generally a well balanced life!
I have a fetish/fantasy about pegging my other half, we have everything for me to do it but he still hasn't made the step to say right get it on and let's try it, I have only mentioned it on the odd occasion but wouldn't ever push him in to doing something he didn't want. He's more stubborn than I am in some ways so that's another reason why I don't push it. When he's ready I'm sure he will let me know
He a lucky man. My biggest fantasy get caught dressing up and fucked with strapon