quite long time i have read this site.
i didnt sign up, just have read people's thoughts and stories.
it was amazing that people live with free and desires.
but, today i would like to note some of mine.
maybe i like to get understanding from others.
cuz people is similar with me and open minded on this site.
by the way,
i guess my english is pretty much terrible and broken.
i will make many misunderstanding and mistakes.
i hope u all understand it please.
im early 30s married woman from an asian country.
there was (and is) nothing much special life, just normal and same as others.
except only one thing.
at once, i cheated my husband almost one years ago.
after that day, i have felt i was changed something on mind.
actually, we have nothing problem.
there are only small things, petty quarrels as like others.
ok. i think this is too long intorduction.
get to the point...
i have a friend who live in Thailand.
she is my old friend from middle school.
we were very closed but after she married, she moved to Thailand
cuz her husband got business in there.
after she moved, evey one year or two, our family has visited her for vacation.
and used to stay 1 or 2 week. rest... beach.. bbq party...
but last year, my husband was busy, so i visited her alone.
and.. it was big fault.
sometimes i used to go out alone on bangkok street for shopping,
cuz my friend have to work at day time.
one day, i met some foeigne backpack travelers from there.
they initiated a conversation with me, cuz they thought me as local and needed
some infomationsof Khaosan raod of Bangkok.
they knew soon i was not local, we talked with hands feet.. body language cuz
my english was really bad and i didnt know in detail of streets of Bangkok.
for fast progression..
we became friends.
they was new experience to me.. i never met or make real foeigne friends before.
it was kind of excitement to me.
we changed messenger, sometimes we sent text each other.
after that day, we met sevral times again.
maybe i shouldnt do that.
but it is useless thoughts. anyway i did mistakes and i cant set back.
one day, they invited me at their room party.
.. alcohol... crowded music...ambience...
yes.. i slept with them.
i didnt know what i thought exactly...
sometimes when i thought that day, it was unrealistic ...
in all my life, i didnt have lived such.
but that days.. i think i was crazy.
to my shame... it was great night i ever had...and cant erase still..
after that days... even after i came back to Korea
i have wandered between desire and regret.
i found here for my desires...
and finaly i can tell this depend on anonymity.
i feel lighter now.
thank u for read such poor story.