Hello there! I'm quite nervous so please be gentle with me!
Firstly..Hope everyone is having an amazingly good day today!
And secondly, I need some advice!
I am currently in a relationship and have been for four years. We are both 22 and met at uni. We we both shy virgins at the time but we clicked instantly and have been together ever since! Anyways, things have started going slowly downhill and we have kind of both just been a bit distant with each other lately. We both started new jobs about 2 months ago to be able to work more and have money for Christmas and we see less of each other now than we used to, which to be honest, doesn't really bother me an awful lot. I think that my boyfriend is more 'into' the relationship than I am. I love him to bits and he loves me too but is it fair to stay in a relationship that I don't want to be in anymore?
I don't want to hurt him- he's been my rock and my best friend for 4 years and I don't want him to be heartbroken by me breaking up with him. However, I just don't feel like my heart is in the relationship anymore, and I think he deserves to know that.
You may wonder why I want to ask this today of all days. Well, today I was finally pushed over the edge! I know that he cares deeply for me and I really do care about him too. But, today, I got a message from him asking if I wanted to go shopping tomorrow. I tell him I can't- is it important? He says he has to buy my Christmas present and wants me to pick it out. I know this may sound petty and very ungrateful, but I gave him a list of what I wanted weeks ago. The items could be ordered online and all of them were under £10. He said he tried to think of something as a surprise but couldn't, so now "you get to pick my own gift out!" I have done all of his holiday shopping from food to gifts for his family and he hasn't had to get one thing, so to me, this just says he is lazy, unorganised and simply just doesn't care all that much. He did apologise but these little things that he does (things like this...) are really starting to get to me and irriate me more and more! *aand rant over!*
Anyways. So.. the advice. Has anyone been through a break up from a long term relationship? Were you the one doing the breaking up, or the one being broken up with, and how did you feel? And lastly.. how do I do it? I know he is going to be upset and hurt as thats inevitable. We have been a big part of each others lives for years so even as the one doing the breaking up, I will be equally upset and hurt. What do I say? I feel like saying "My heart just isn't in it anymore' as thats how I feel, but I just think that might sound a bit rubbish?
Thanks all :) x