I would like peoples real experiences and to know what helped.
I lost my libido about 2 and a half years to 3 years ago and it is still lost! :(
I can't say what took it away as I don't know adsactly, though I do have an idea. Before my libido left, I was with my ex (of 3 years). We had a lot of sex and I used to kind of enjoy it (I don't think that I have ever been well in to it, Always prefered it short and fast.) He cheated on me a lot and would accuse me of cheating or threaten leaving when I didn't give him sex. In the end he left me for another person. (of cause after the relationship I realised how bad it was and I got lucky that he found someone else)
I was then single for a year. In the second half of that year I slept with someone a few times, just a no strings thing but that made me feel vile.
After that year, I got in to a relationship with my current partner and we have had sex and experimented with a few things together. I have not been in to sex at all really in the last 3 years. So we would have sex but I would always hate myself after and often cry and feel dirty. Sometimes I would cry during and we would stop. (I just have to make clear that my partner does not and has never forced me in to sex) I guess I would have sex in the hope that it would just sort its self out. Of cause, it hasn't.
I have tried different things, such as sex toys, I took sexy pictures, OH and I took sexy pictures together, I have read erotic novels, I read a book about 'becoming a sex kitten', I read a book called re-energise your sex life, I brought sexy lingerie, I brought sex games, I joined fetlife to see a different world of sex (I am no longer on there), I made a 'kinky twitter' (I no longer have that either) and I joined the LH community.
I got diagnosed with depression a year and a half ago and I am aware that that it is a factor. I have mentioned it to my doctor and I will be seeing a counsellor in a months time, but I thought that I would post on here because the month is taking a long time (I have been on a waiting list for 3 months) and I was crying last night in frustration about the situation. I have sex probably once a month and that it because I don't want my partner to suffer although he kind of is. He has never forced sex and he doesn't want it all the time anyway. But he used to ask and he doesn't even ask anymore because I felt hastled, which I did / do, but it must be bad if he doesn't even ask any more. I find it harder as well because I am only in my early 20's so I should be well in to sex!
I appreciate any help, opinions or experiences that may help me (and other people, if there are other people suffering with loss of libido) Thanks for reading my story, it has been hard for me to do this.