I need a rant. A massive one. And a big cry.
My month is going from bad to worse and I don't know what to do. My solution at the moment is to have a cry, and I can think of something more productive later.
Firstly, I realised I was broke. Not just as in "I should probably watch my spending" type broke, actually completely broke. I've just taken over a shop, and I feel like I've been completely had and made a fool out of. It's not making any where near enough money, and I havent taken a wage in 2 months. I keep telling myself that it'll pass but I've made myself realise that it won't pass, and I have no way of improving the situation. 've decided to give my little shop up. Today I started clearing out my papers and things, and it got very emotional but I managed to hold it together. I've arranged a meeting with the previous owner for tomorrow morning, so hopefully he will want to take it of my hands and I can get a job.
On top of that, my period is late by 2 weeks. I'm not too worried, as I know I have been completely stressed the past month and I'm pretty sure it's down to that. Either way, I'm going to get myself a preggo test later just to be on the safe side.
When I left work today, after almost breaking down in tears, I found out my car had been clamped. Apparently, the staff car park for the mall my shop is in is split into two halves, and I'd parked in the wrong half. (Even though the "Private Area" signs for both bits are identical, so I had no way of knowing..) Well, I burst out crying. THEN loads of people who manage the mall came outside, to find me, blubbering away in the car park. With no sympathy whatsoever, I was told that "sometimes we have to take responsibilities for our mistakes" which made me a lot worse, as it wasn't even my fault. AND THEN!! to top it all off, my boyfriends dad comes around the corner, to find me crying and arguing with a bunch of men. He has a very short temper and started arguing with the man who issues the tickets and clamps. So there's me, sobbing away, while my boyfriends dad and this other guy have a full blown argument. It must have looked hilarious, really. Eventually, my OHs dad paid for the ticket, and the clamp was removed.
Obviously I'm very grateful that he paid but now I can't afford to pay him back! UUhhh.
I always have the bad luck. Why can't life just give me a break?!?! Rant over.