Hi guys,
Need some help and advice. Background to this......
Yesturday evening i found out that my Dad has cancer. I was uspet as you can imagine and so called my boyfriend. He was nice on the phone and we talked and it made me feel better. Thing is, on the phone he said that if we lived nearer to each other he'd come to me, but it was about half 10 at night and it's 10 miles away. I appreciated the sentiment and said good night.
Today i was supposed to go to Uni but when i got there and spoke to my lecturers they said take some days off and sort things out. I was appreciative of this and went home. My boyfriend also has this week off from work. On the way home i called my boyfriend and told him that i was going home and i was having the day off.
I got home at about 11am, bought myself some malteasers, cos they are amazing at cheering me up, and watched some stupid christmas movies on TV. at about 2pm i went on facebook and saw that he had finished work at mid day and was doing something with a friend.
I felt a bit miffed that he didn't think to come to see me when he finished work as he knows i'm upset about my Dad. That was one thing, but then at about 5pm he called and said he was going out for a curry with his mates tonight and that he'd call me tomorrow 'or something' and hung up as i heard his mates shouting stupid shit in the back ground.
I don't know if it's me being ultra upset at the minute that's making this situation feel worse to me but i feel so let down by him at the minute. I feel like he doesn't give a shit about me. I need someone to hug me when i cry and tell me everything is gonna be ok but it seems like i'm not important, like i'm not even in his thought process at all.
Is this just me being irrational at the moment???