Hello everyone,
I have a decision to make. I am currently at university during exam season! My next exam is on Friday afternoon (8th June), and then my exam after that is on the 16th June, with my last exam on the 23rd.
I am struggling deeply with depression at the moment. I am currently taking beta-blockers to help with my panic attacks, although I am still feeling extremely low and homesick.
I am in a long-distance relationship, and my boyfriend has finished university for summer and is now at home (in my hometown). I miss him so much, and know that I would feel much more comfortable if I was to revise at home and see my OH in the evenings.
My friends here at university are being so supportive, although they all have partners and I feel as though I am getting in the way of their relationships. I feel extremely jealous of the time they get to spend with their OH's, although I am so greatful that they are trying to include me day-to-day life.
I previously went home for 2 weeks before my first exam, but I have only been back at university for a week and already feel as though I can't cope.
My dilema is that I want to go home, but I am not sure my parents will be too impressed with me being home. Equally, I am worried that my OH's parents won't understand how much I need my OH around, and will look down on me for being clingy to their son.
Another part of my dliema is that I do not have a lot of money to go home, and I will need to ask my brother for some money to buy my train tickets. When I get home I will have access to one of my bank accounts, so I will be able to take some money from my savings to pay him back and provide myself with some more money for the next few weeks of university.
I have never had any experience of depression before, and I don't know how to cope. I need advice on whether I should go home for a week from Friday to Thursday, or whether I should stick university out and spend a lot of time with my friends to get me through the next few weeks.
Please help! :(