I'm not really sure this is appropriate content for Love Honey... but here goes -
Do you ever have those days/times when you doubt yourself? When you go over and over things in your head and you wonder if youre really all that? I'm having one of those at the moment. Im so lucky to have met the woman of my dreams, im lucky enough to own my own home, to have a strong and loving family, to have caring and brilliant friends, to have achieved careerwise well above and beyond my wildest dreams so far (and im only 28,) im lucky to have been dealt overall a very tidy hand of cards by fate.
Yet i worry, stress and over analyse all the negative things i can think of, most of which i just make worse for myself by doing so - Am i being the best partner and lover i can be to my beautiful girl, whatever would happen if i lost my job and couldn't pay the bills, how can i divide my time to cover all the things i love and not neglect anyone or anything which i hold dear to me, how can i best act as a parent to the two children which my partner has? So many things to try and focus on, and yet so many things to get right becuase failing will mean losing any one of those precious things.
Maybe im just being a soppy twat, maybe its a good thing im concerned and strive towards getting it right and not takinga lazy attitude to trying to find fulfillment in all life offers me.
Its just today its getting me down today, and i wonder if im capable of the challenge, isn't that just normal to doubt and worry? If you met me you'd never know because i rarely share such worries with others, everyones got their problems and they dont need mine as well.
Dont worry im not going to throw myself under a tube train, (im far too busy for that haha,) Sometimes its just easier to talk to people you dont know.
I wish you all a wicked evening
Cheers
Cityslicker