Please don’t apologize for posting, and really no need to delete either.
The main thing to ask yourself is:
Have I gained more knowledge and insight after I decided to post this topic?
I would suggest from your comments it might have helped in terms of self reflection and understanding a little more around whats going on for you. There was a previous comment you made about making progress with your lady on a facetime call too.
All in all might be considered a productive post?